1.29.2014

To My Loving Husband One Day

I love you so very much my Loving Michael, we have been through so much wonderful loving years and then we ran up against allot of sorrow in May of 2009, with every surgery I went through for my hear the worse I got.  I am in so much pain now suffering that I can not take much more of.  I do pray for God To take me home, so I do not have to suffer any more.  I know that it must be hurting you as much as it hurts me to see how I have changed from a very out going woman to a person that I honestly do not know.  I feel as if I am a burden to you and I do not want that.  I love you so much Michael and it hurts me to have to watch you go through and see all the suffering I am going through, for I know deep down inside of your heart you are hurting as much as I am if not more.  I always thought we would continue to have such a full life together with allot of laughs that I could put in your heart and smiles upon your face and deep in both of our hearts.
I know I am not leaving you today my true love but, hopefully in time  God will send an Angel down to take me home so that I can be at peace and you too will not have to watch the person you love suffer as much as I am.
I will be with Shiloh and Cloudy and in time we know that you will be with us one day but, Michael that day is not the day that God takes me home.
I will always be with you right at your side and always watching over you.  I love you  and when I go home yes if you don't mind I would like to take just a little piece of your heart with me so I can always have you with me.
We tried our hardest Michael you know that, but we just didn't have not one DR, Cardiologist, Thoracic Surgeon that cared enough to try and help me, for all they did was make me worse and worse every time they touched me.  I believe my heart broke from all the damage they did to it and me.
I love you and yes we will always be together.

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